I'm Done With Bad Days!!

I've added another member to my team.  This member I think might make her way to Captain in no time at all.  She is a Naturopath Doctor with a gentle soul and is willing to take me on as a patient.  In fact she listened to me for 1.5 hours.  Yup, I'll repeat that, a Doctor who was actually interested in what I had to say about MY body for an hour and a half.  Did I have to pay out of pocket, you betcha, but I got what I paid for and then some.   The appointment itself was difficult as it's the first time I attended a medical appointment alone.  Normally I have T Jay there to add the missing pieces.  Instead I was jumping around, mixing up dates and time lines but she was very understanding.  I was exhausted, my brain taxed beyond it's limits but I pushed through it, as after all, I should be the expert on my own body.  I was beaming the rest of Wednesday, someone actually listened to me, I couldn't wait to tell T Jay all about it.  As I was cutting celery to put in our salad for dinner that familiar feeling of the burning neck, and then the dancing aura that is ohh so familiar with what I now call "pre brain surgery" migraines.  Zack you are now on making salad dressing duty, Haley take care of the rice, I have to close my eyes.

I should have known as that afternoon my Trigeminal Neuralgia was acting up.  I knew that it was information overload.  I explained to her my filing cabinet theory on how brain surgery just dumps your well organized life and memories out all over your skull floor and how hard I've worked to pain stakenly refile each little piece of paper.  (It was actually very evident to me that my files are still very mixed up when I had to do it alone, T Jay has become an excellent secretary)

I see my new Neurologist in two weeks and hopefully he is as open to listening as the latest member was.  Funny thing about traditional medicine, it's never really clear on who's appointment it is.  My appointment explaining my issues and asking for help or their appointment telling you how it really is.  It's a weird line there I'm learning.  Either way, each day is a new one in this journey of healing.  There will be good days and then there will be great days.